Please Let Me Apologize: A Poem

Please

Please let me apologize

for what happened

those 6 years ago.

We walked the barren fields

we exchanged looks

and words

and stories

and we wept for our past selves

we didn’t look back to see

the produce of our tears.

we just looked ahead.

at the dead stalks

jutting from the ground

at the dry soil

crumbling under our feet

at our future

dark, dry, barren.

You were hesitant, I knew.

You weren’t so quick to jump 

towards desperation

towards despairing recreation.

But I forced you 

to take the plunge 

with me.

So you’ll always be with me.

After I took you down

I ran back 

to start over

It was then that I saw

the green sprouting

the soil supple

the product of our tears

growing up.

I wanted to run to you

to cultivate with you

but you were moving past me

taking our garden with you.